UNTIL WHEN?

april 23; 17:00

i just had my interview at peninsula plaza. i was disappointed with myself.

time is slipping so fast that i didn't notice that it's my 5th week here in singa. im so busy with nothing.

some people would envy me for being a bum, have nothing to do but eat, sleep, read, surf the net and do some household chores. but i tell you, it's better to be working than being idle.

im starting to feel that im not good in anything. i sent my resume to almost 400 job postings and yet, not more than 10 of them invited me for an interview. it was a hell feeling.

im getting tired...

til when will i read the newspapers and look at the job postings if it fits my qualifications?

til when will i copy and paste my cover letter, attach my resume and send email to a hundred of companies?

til when will i experience being interviewed in less than 5 mins. and hearing the interviewer say "will just contact you for a second interview if you are shortlisted"?

til when will i ride the MRT, bus, and cab, walk for so long, being lost in a place, ask some people when is this place, then being regreted after an interview?

til when will i wait for the meant-for-me job?

looking for a job here isn't a piece of cake as what some people thought. 90% of companies would prefer to hire locals and PRs than foreigners like me.

im losing hope...

i wanna go home..